Sometimes

 

 Sometimes it happens, when you don’t know how to feel and how to react, whether to cry or to laugh.

There are times, even tears won’t come when you are really broken. The things that makes you happy don’t feel like happiness anymore. You know that it’s not good for you but you end up doing it. 

There are times where drama and tragic happens in our life, like as we always watched on t.v or movies. We tend to say lots on the character when they are not smart or brave enough to fight back during crime, sexual abuse and any family scene, but when we encounter the same situation, that’s when we realize how it feels to be in there position. It isn’t easy as we think and how much courage we need to face that situation. Even when you try to be strong, your body won’t co-operate with you. Body start to shake and shiver like we are standing on ice, we feel weak like we haven’t eaten anything for months.

There are also those times, we just feel hopeless and Feelingless. We know that there’s solution for everything but still don’t feel like doing anything except sleeping and locking ourself inside the room, crying alone and screaming without making a single noise.

Times we look at mirror and hate to see ourself. All we can see are marks on our body and eyes cover with dark circle. We don’t feel like dressing up, wearing makeup and going out. We don’t feel like talking to anyone and avoid asking for their help.

Some of the times, life seems meaningless and unwanted. We don’t find purpose to live a life and we stop thinking positive and allow negative thoughts and feelings in our life. We wonder why we can’t enjoy the same things which we used to enjoy a lot 3 years back. How we used to joke and avoid those rubbish things that people used to tell us, but now those words are haunting us back.

We are pretending many of the times that the world “ pretend” has become our other self, which is pretending to be okay when we are not. We hide our tears putting a fake smile on our face and pretending that we are happy  in our regular life. 

We have all been through these sometimes. We have all done those somethings. There’s no you and me, it’s us, all of us have face either some or every one of those sometimes. The difference is that some of us get tired and make a hard life choices and some try to get through this. For some those times are like years, for some it’s days. The thing is, it will pass, it’s sometimes, but it will pass. 

  

                        TEN~KHA