The worst feeling

 

What could be the worst feeling in this world for you, right now? For me, I think it’s when you don’t know what you’re going through. When you can’t explain what is happening and what kind of feeling is it, so uncomfortable and painful. You want to get out of that zone but you can’t find any solution because you don’t even know what the problem is.

The worst feeling is when you feel like You are trapped inside emotions. Every second you feel like crying, it’s like something is going wrong. You don’t care about people around you and start acting weird. You act like an innocent child and sometimes abnormal. Sometimes you just want to stay away from everyone and feel like there’s no one in your life. Sometimes you laugh in an emotional movie scene while other people's eyes are filled with sadness and tears. 

The worst feeling is when you don’t know how to share your feelings while you feel so heavy inside. You cry so hard because of many reasons but you can’t explain a single thing when someone asks you why are you crying and what is wrong. You just feel so angry because you can’t deal with that feeling. You feel like you’re not you. You don’t understand yourself and how terrifying it is to know that you’re your enemy. Sometimes you feel like you’re not a normal person. You feel like you’re suffocating in your own body. You start doubting yourself. 

The worst feeling is when you don’t know whether you’re one of those who are suffering from depression, anxiety, or stress. You feel so relatable when you googled them on the internet. You don’t know how to ask for help. You can’t ask for help because You don’t find any reason to explain even if you go to see anyone who can help you. You feel lost and lonely in your world. It’s hard to explain to people when you have no experience in sharing things with anyone. And talking about health you just feel so weak. No proper food, no physical activity, anxiety pain, and an unhealthy body. 

The worst feeling is when you have nobody to hold you and loves you. You just want to cry so hard falling on someone’s arm holding them tightly and just want to stay like that for hours. You don’t want to explain to them or want to share anything but want to be with them just to feel safe, knowing that you have someone in your life who can understand you, who is always by your side when you feel low, sad, and lonely. But sadly, You always find yourself alone when you are completely broken down and unable to hold your own body. You feel completely lonely in this world when you see no one comes to hug you so tightly saying that everything gonna be okay and I am always there for you. 

                           TEN~KHA