Wednesday, March 29, 2023

The worst feeling

 


What could be the worst feeling in this world for you, right now? For me, I think it’s when you don’t know what you’re going through. When you can’t explain what is happening and what kind of feeling is it, so uncomfortable and painful. You want to get out of that zone but you can’t find any solution because you don’t even know what the problem is.


The worst feeling is when you feel like You are trapped inside emotions. Every second you feel like crying, it’s like something is going wrong. You don’t care about people around you and start acting weird. You act like an innocent child and sometimes abnormal. Sometimes you just want to stay away from everyone and feel like there’s no one in your life. Sometimes you laugh in an emotional movie scene while other people's eyes are filled with sadness and tears. 


The worst feeling is when you don’t know how to share your feelings while you feel so heavy inside. You cry so hard because of many reasons but you can’t explain a single thing when someone asks you why are you crying and what is wrong. You just feel so angry because you can’t deal with that feeling. You feel like you’re not you. You don’t understand yourself and how terrifying it is to know that you’re your enemy. Sometimes you feel like you’re not a normal person. You feel like you’re suffocating in your own body. You start doubting yourself. 


The worst feeling is when you don’t know whether you’re one of those who are suffering from depression, anxiety, or stress. You feel so relatable when you googled them on the internet. You don’t know how to ask for help. You can’t ask for help because You don’t find any reason to explain even if you go to see anyone who can help you. You feel lost and lonely in your world. It’s hard to explain to people when you have no experience in sharing things with anyone. And talking about health you just feel so weak. No proper food, no physical activity, anxiety pain, and an unhealthy body. 


The worst feeling is when you have nobody to hold you and loves you. You just want to cry so hard falling on someone’s arm holding them tightly and just want to stay like that for hours. You don’t want to explain to them or want to share anything but want to be with them just to feel safe, knowing that you have someone in your life who can understand you, who is always by your side when you feel low, sad, and lonely. But sadly, You always find yourself alone when you are completely broken down and unable to hold your own body. You feel completely lonely in this world when you see no one comes to hug you so tightly saying that everything gonna be okay and I am always there for you. 


                           TEN~KHA 

Monday, March 27, 2023

Dear shoe


Thank you for always being there for me and taking me to all those beautiful places that are not possible without you. You might have been through a lots like walking in dry place, freezing cold while raining, all the dirt on you and sometimes I don’t even care about you .so ,I’m sorry for being lazy ðŸ˜… but I just want to make sure that are you doing okay?


                               TEN~KHA 

Sunday, March 26, 2023

Dear soul

 


I’m sorry for keeping you open and letting everything in while you’re unable to balance yourself. I’m sorry for all those hurtful feelings and experiences. I’m sorry for letting you suffer. Maybe right now it’s not safe for you to stay open. So, I’m going to close you to take a break from everything that is happening around me. One Day I will let you out when the weather is clear outside but for now I don’t want to let you get hurt anymore


                                TEN~KHA

Sunday, January 8, 2023

Should I blame society for being a woman


Being a woman What do you think about it ? A full of sweet melodies or a cup of tea, maybe a flower to your garden or could be a fairy to you. But Almost the happy percentage of society reduce knowing that it is a girl. I'm sure still this things are happening in 21st century. Even if they are happy to know that it's a girl but still they wish it was a boy. Definitely women have to be in cage rules but boys don't. 


The first cage rules is girl in her first period. From a girl family to a cow family. Girl have to stay in cowshed for weeks just because of her period. Being in a period is considered as a bad luck. They think she will bring unfortunate to  her family. The second cage rules is girl are meant to be nest to their family Which means girls can't leave home for her education and freedom. They have to stay home and do household things even If she feel like going to school. Believe it or not but this things are still happening in rural areas. The third cage rules is not allowing her to be herself. She can't be she even if she wants to be, just because of the society. No matter how much successful she is, how much money she earn or even after her marriage the eye of society will never stop interfering her life. 


Why women have lots of responsibilities and tons of tolerance to make society comfortable. Why society are so obsessed with woman. What is good for her what Is bad for her, she know better than anyone else. Do you know how girl struggles to lead a normal life? So many girls struggling every day. I know parents get worried about their daughter but that doesn’t means she can’t live her life with her choice and freedom. I don't understand why they are cutting back their wings from flying just because they care her and worried about her safety? 


They don't allow them to wear shorts and go alone. They have lots of advice to give, “ don't stay late, don't hang out too much, you aren't allowed to go outside after 5:pm, wear properly, manner yourself ." But parents and society are blindly mistaken for their false believes and rules. Those rules will always allow guilty people to give excuses. They will point out to those rules and define woman as her fault. 


Definitely woman are aware of those things but why woman are still getting attack and get raped. She has been aware of everything since she were born as a girl. But guilty people don't care whether she is wearing long or short, whether she is returning home early or late even they don't care whether she's just an innocent young child or an old woman who is age of there own mother. but no, they only care about their desperate desire.


Girls have to think more than twice before wearing short or her favorite outfit just because to stop people from staring and say something bad even before she enjoy her normal day but disgusting and Disgraceful people don't think about her life before ruining it. On other hand society jump into conclusion without knowing anything about the condition and blame on her way of dressing. 


If dressing short is mistake then innocent child may be mistaken too because they also get raped and have to face that side of problems. Shame on society for making her life even harder than before. She lost her body and barely have little bit of courage to live her life but society is killing that too. They treat her like she don't deserve to live in that society after happening all those traumatic experience.


The pressure that society give her is like a torture. She have to go through lots of emotional pain and mental illness. She have to bear everything around her. She have no choice but to listen and cry deeply in the corner And some of those she ended up her life because of society more than the person who ruined her life. If society had giving her a hope to live even after having Terrible things,  hope those victims would be alive today. 


I think society should understand that it’s not her dress, it’s her body. And those people don’t care about clothes because it’s her body and that’s what they want from her. Dear society, when I say society it includes women which we consider as aunties, it includes men, it includes my own family members and others. If we believe that dressing short is the reason then why the western culture women are not being raped on the beaches? For them wearing nothing is also so normal and wearing short, man has never looked at those women in a way our cultural man does and it sounds so shameful to tell our society. 


Those boundaries and rules are set by our own society. The so called 90s society has recognized woman as useless and weak . But now it’s time to change the thought of our society. Do not dear to stop your daughter from going out late instead stop your son from going out because just like your son, others son will make your daughter unsafe and your son will make others daughter unsafe. If there is no man in late night road then all the woman out there will be safe. Stop stopping your daughter from wearing shorts and tell your own son not to stare at other women because it’s like staring your own sister with that dirty eye. Let them realize that every woman can be their own sister and mother. 


All the women who tell others women to be aware of where they go and how they dress, must stop. Because it’s like giving a sign that it will happen to you. Women shouldn’t tell women to be aware but they should tell man to be aware of woman . Telling women about what is safe for her is not a right thing instead tell and explain man that what they do and think of women is wrong . Warning women is not the solution for women because she is not the one who raped man. So don’t try to realize the women because the problems is man. Not all of the man are bad and I respect those man who respect women. I don’t understand why women are not including men while taking about mensuration or women awareness. man also have right to understand all the issues of woman, they also have their own sisters and mother. It is important for man to understand woman and make them realize few things before taking wrong steps against women. 


Well society, I don’t want to blame you anymore because you’re powerful enough to break my words into pieces but I want to let you realize and understand that it’s time to walk along with the time. It’s already 2023 and we are living in 21st century so please act like you’re doing something good starting today. I’m not asking you to understand woman or say nothing to woman. I just want you to free woman from the society responsibilities and let her live her life because she also have to take care of her own responsibility and her life.


                          TEN~KHA