I have been lying since when I don't recognized myself. Always been smiling when I mean to cry in pain. Hardly facing everything when I'm already loosing. I have been helping other when I was hoping them to help me. Subconsciously shaking my body when I'm emotionally weak inside. I have been saying okay when I was supposed to say I'm not . I was immature when it was time for me to be mature.
Yeah ! I have been threw these all but still I'm in pain because I often smile and cry deeply at night. I'm quite outside but trying hard to loud the voice inside me. I have constantly act normally strong but inside I'm actually confused and nervous. I take it easy In every situations but still fear of scare makes me feel like dying to have a drops of water. I wanted to make things perfect but nothing remains the same. I thought that it was a beautiful turning point but I found my self in horrible path.
Trying to avoid fears of illusions and knowing that it's Not true, makes me feel like it's going to happen. I want to be free from those beautiful lies but there is no option left to be truth about myself. Praying to Lord by wishing for the last hope Trying to be alright with beautiful lies.
TEN~KHA
i reflected this poem on myself and that was preety much related to me..u r doing grt.. keep going
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