I was watching a movie and I was really enjoying it but suddenly I felt something wet and cold running down my cheek. The level of pain I was feeling at that moment was equivalent to how I feel when someone I know has died. Considering how sad I felt out of nowhere was unreasonable because I was breaking down in the middle of the movie.
That's when I start to question myself, is everything alright with me or just worse ? Am I drowning and getting stuck into the black hold while I pretend everything is alright.
As I was crying my heartache, my breath was heavy and my eyes don't seems to stop crying. At that moment I was wishing someone was there with me to tell me that everything Will be alright but at that moment, there was no one to embrace me with their warm hug or comfort me with enduring advice.
I was alone with the sad piano music that was playing in the background making me realized how lonely I was in my own pain and sadness which is making me realize how everything that I'm carrying inside me is killing me slowly like a slow poison.
By then, all I wanted to do is sleep, my soul wandering in faraway land and hoping I would never wake up to being such an emotional fool.
TEN~KHA
